alpha asher by jane doe chapter 154
” I know , it’s insane . ” Breyona’s laugh was breathless and just a bit choked up as she wiped the tears from her eyes . Staring
off into the forest , her voice unnaturally soft she said , ” I never thought I’d be able t o feel that kind of freedom again .... it’s like -
it’s like I can breathe again . ” >>
” Breyona , I don’t know why they did that ... but there’s no way they won’t want something in return . ” I wasn’t sure what made
my chest ache more , warning my best – friend her dream come true might actually be a nightmare , or seeing the denial bleed
across her face when I continued carefully , ” I’m just worried they’ll take back what they gave you in the first place ...
” I didn’t want to say it , but she wasn’t giving me a choice . There was stubborn refusal in her warm hazelnut eyes , but I knew
no matter how miserable she was without her wolf , she’d be worse off without Giovanni . ” ... Giovanni’s life . ” I murmured and
watched as the iron bars of resolution slammed down over her eyes .
” No , that’s not it . ” Breyona stood from the patio chair but made no move to head inside . Frustration was written across every
corner of her face and was obvious in the semi – aggressive way she pulled her hair back . ” So I’m not a witch , but that doesn’t
mean my gut feelings can’t be right too .
Well , right now mine is telling me they wouldn’t take my wolf and save Gio’s life , only to return her and finish the job . ” I wanted
to reassure her , but the only thing I felt was worried , both for her and Giovanni . ” Why can’t I just have both ? ” Her voice
cracked , and she clenched her hands into fists while letting out a shaky breath . Devastation still shimmered in her eyes , but
she held it down so well . ” Let’s – let’s just drop it for tonight , okay ? I know we can’t ignore it forever ...
but if I could just have these few days with Gio . We can figure out what to do when I come back . ” Just from watching her pull
the splintered shards of emotion from her skin and patch herself together , I realized I might’ve not given my best – friend enough
credit . Not once had she faltered a t my side , even though she was going through so much herself . Instead she kept her
problems to herself , even though a subtle feeling told me she’d been drowning in them .
Feeling like a monumentally crappy friend I stood and wrapped my arms around her waist , which I was sure looked comical
since I was nearly a foot shorter than her . Sure enough , she began to chuckle , but I could hear the sniffling it covered .
Watching the happiness that had just been rekindled fade in her eyes had a sobering affect .
” We’re going to make sure you can have both , Breyona . I’ll use every bit of magic I have to make sure of it . ” I promised ,
cracking a grin at her brave nod and the way she hastily wiped at her eyes . Minutes later , Cassidy eagerly interrupted with
news about her lacrosse player ex boyfriend , Kendrick . With gossip and a rapidly cooling pizza waiting , Breyona and I raced
back inside .
While we stuffed our faces with pizza from the small parlor down the street , Cassidy told us all about her whirlwind romance with
Kendrick – which seemed more fueled by lust than anything else . Breyona wrinkled her nose at my slice of Hawaiian every other
minute , but otherwise was absorbed in every seedy detail of Cassidy’s story .
” My mom was absolutely against Kendrick from the start , despite what she says . It took her almost a year just to get over the
fact that I wasn’t Asher or Brandon’s mate . ” Cassidy rolled her eyes and let out a small huff as she tore the crust off her slice of
pizza . From what I could tell of her expression , she looked more exasperated than jealous or longing .
I didn’t have nearly enough to drink to feel comfortable asking my questions outright , but I apparently Breyona had . ” Did you
want to be one of their mates ? ” Her voice grew quieter even though there was no one in the house to hear us . Any wolves
patrolling the grounds would be well out of range , but that didn’t stop her
from asking it as though it were a secret . She hiccupped once and added , ” ... don’t worry , Lola is freakishly good at not getting
jealous . She won’t go all tri – brid o n you for talking about her mate .
” When I snorted in her direction her smile widened . Maya’s tail swished in my head , letting me know how wrong our endearing
friend was about us not getting jealous . ” I’ve definitely thought about how incredible it would be to be Luna , but at this point
being mated to one of them would feel like being mated to a brother .
” Cassidy wrinkled her nose , creasing some of the freckles splattered along its slim surface . ” I think our parents expected it
because of how persistent I was back then . The minute I saw Brandon and Asher wrestling in the dirt , rougher than all the other
kids , I knew I wanted to be best friends . ” The ease at which she spoke dissolved the tension in the room .
If there was any hesitance on her end , I couldn’t sense it . M y relationship with Asher and the titles I’d been given didn’t affect
the things she said , or the way she treated me . It was refreshing and eased the rest of the trepidation I had towards Cassidy . ‘
Asher said himself , he’s never even kissed her . Which means there’s no reason to be jealous .
‘ I reminded my wolf , who at times could be much more hot headed and stubborn than myself . A contemplative look forced her
lower lip out in a pout , which lasted but a few seconds . ” I’m sure my mom won’t hate Kendrick this time around . Hm , I might
just cancel my date with Lars . Kendrick has a game out of town that day anyway , and I’m nothing if not persistent – which
means I have to go too , especially if there’s a good afterparty .
” Clara’s pretty persistent with Mason ... Breyona pointed out , folding a slice in half before taking a large bite . I tried to wait
patiently as she chewed , but I was already hooked . ” ... but I don’t think it’s friendship she’s after . ” ” What do you think she’s
after ? ” I asked before Cassidy got the chance , and noticed I was the only one of us to appear worried .
Understanding in the form of a cringe slapped me across the face when Breyona leaned in and said , ” His di- ” ” Wow , okay .
Um , are you sure ? How do you know ? ” Even though heat blossomed across my face , I pursed my lips and waited for an
answer . ” Mason stepped out of training to take a call from her right when I walked in the building . ” She smirked tipsily , gently
waving her uneaten slice of pizza around a s she talked .
” Naturally , I harassed him until he told me everything . She’s been asking Asher for him for days now , but Mason keeps
refusing . Well , one of Mason’s patrol buddies was given guard duty and she used her taser magic and knocked him right out .
Took his phone right out of his pocket and called Mason with it ... ” ” No way , she sounds like a total badass . Taser magic ?
Goddess sign me up ! ” Cassidy exploded in warm laughter , the sound light and airy .
” That’s not even the best part ... ” Breyona shook her head , making her messy bun grow loose . ” She tied some of the
bedsheets together at the hotel and wrapped them around his waist . Mason got to the hotel and found his friend hanging off the
third – floor balcony . Which I know sounds dangerous , but his friend had already woken up at that point . The only reason he
hadn’t gotten himself down was because Clara threatened to zap him again ... and apparently a second zap s o soon after the
first does something to the bowels and you just sh- ” ” It sounds like she just likes pissing him off .
” I replied , lifting my eyebrow in her direction . ” ... also , how does Mason feel about it ? ” ” Yeah , she likes pissing him off the
same way you like pissing Asher off . ” The cheeky grin that stretched across her face grew wider , because she knew she’d won
this round . ” As for Mason , he was blushing the entire time he ranted about her .
” Really , you think he likes her back ? ” I couldn’t help the surprise that popped into my voice . Werewolves who found love after
surviving the death of their mates were rare . Mason had a better chance than most since he hadn’t completed his bond , but that
didn’t lessen the pain of knowing your soulmate had left this world and moved on to the next .
” I think he’s attracted to her , which he’d b e an idiot not to be , but I think he doesn’t really know what to do with the attention .
Luckily , like I said ... she’s persistent . She’ll find some way to get them alone together and push his buttons , just like you and
Asher- ” Hey , I was never the one to get him alone ‘ remember ? He was the one stalking me .
” I said shrewdly , letting out a sound o f exasperation when she and Cassidy collapsed in laughter , sputtering snippets of
conversation in between their snorts and wheezes . As both she – wolves succumbed to laughter and pawed at the tears
budding i n their eyes , my thoughts darted to Mason and the curvy exotic dancer who apparently had a thing for him .
There weren’t any flashes of fear or other gruesome emotions warning me about the young witch , only a healthy dose of
suspicion which was far less than Asher’s regular everyday amount . I returned to the conversation just as the two had pulled
themselves together . Cassidy was pouring herself another shot , while Breyona grabbed a few containers of ice cream from the
freezer .
” We’re just teasing ... ” Cassidy giggled and tossed back the strong – scented liquor . Her perfect pout remained in place even
though I knew her throat must be burning . ” ... I think every she – wolf dreams of meeting her mate that way . It’s just so strange
seeing Asher wrapped around someone’s finger with how untouchable he can be .
” ” Those are the best ones though . ” Breyona sighed , plopping down with a pint of mint chocolate chip – the worst ice cream
flavor to grace this planet . ” The men that act all tough and brooding , but secretly they want you more than you could ever
imagine . Mason’s getting the brooding part down , especially since meeting Clara . I think things between them would be ...
explosive . He just has to stop being so stubborn . “
She giggled at her choice of words , undoubtedly comparing it to Clara’s magical abilities . That night , after finishing two
containers of ice cream and suffering through a long winded romantic comedy we ended up hating halfway through , I stared at
the ceiling in my bedroom and thought of Mason . It didn’t matter how much time had passed , only that I was responsible for the
death of his mate .
There was no telling what could have changed with time – if she would’ve left her Vampire spouse to follow the bond that tugged
at her soul . I’d taken that choice from her , and that future from Mason . The gentle and repetitive sound of Breyona’s snoring
had yet to lull me to sleep , so I wasted the time conjuring ways to get Mason and Clara alone together .
Most of them were juvenile , like having Asher assign Mason as her personal trainer . It wasn’t too far – fetched since Clara knew
absolutely nothing about defending herself without magic , but he’d see through me in a second if I were the one to give the
order .
Someway somehow , they would find themselves alone together , I was sure of i t . Even more so , If Breyona were right and the
spark between them mirrored Asher and I’s , it would only be a matter of time before they both caught flame .
I wanted this desperately for Mason , for him to have some fraction of his happiness restored – some shred of peace reclaimed
since his reason for existing had been so cruelly ripped away . Exhaustion was weighing down my eyes and pulling me into its
deep abyss when m y heart skipped a beat and a jolt spread throughout my chest .
Though the feeling was abrupt , there was no stopping myself from tumbling over the edge . Right before plummeting , I
wondered if it were my thoughts about Mason or something else entirely that caused my elusive magic to crackle down my nerve
endings , and even more so I wondered what it meant .