Chapter 63 All her options
CA SSANDRA
I was a little taken aback by the Alpha King’s question. Did Asher actually care
that I'd been hurt or had he asked only out of politeness?
I nodded anyway. “I'm fine.”
He didn’t seem as convinced. His eyes remained fixed on my bandaged arm and
his mouth drew into a thin line. With every second, I was growing more and more
uncomfortable with this interaction and decided to not waste any more time.
“How is Adalyn?” I wondered and immediately, Asher broke his gaze and cleared
his throat.
“Half of her left forearm is burnt,” he revealed and he ran his hand through his
tousled dark hair tiredly. “Though the acid wasn't strong enough to get to the
bone, it will leave permanent scars. The royal healers did all they could, but
there's only so much they could accomplish. Adalyn is upset.”
I nodded but didn’t say anything. Of course Adalyn would be upset. She was
incredibly vain when it came to her appearance. Any type of flaw or imperfection
would make her more emotional than the physical pain itself.
For a moment, I wanted to scoff at the ridiculousness, but then I remembered my
own injuries from the inferno. To this day, I had no idea how Emmett had been
able to cure me and remove all of my burn scars.
“Look, I know this wasn’t your fault, Ca ssandra,” Asher spoke again. “But this is
a complicated matter that needs sorting out. In the meantime, I suggest that you
don't leave your chambers or roam the palace. I think it would be best for
everyone
you remained confined and out of sight, at least for now.”
if
“I understand,” I said quietly and I nodded as I considered his words. Adalyn
Moses was the Beta’s daughter and the Alpha King’s wife. I was nothing more
than a
country commoner. Though I had once been someone important, I no longer held
any power, therefore, I needed to heed Asher’s decree, no matter how much I
disliked it.
“Are you sure it doesn’t hurt?” Asher pressed, and he gestured again to my
bandaged hand. He reached out to touch my arm, but I automatically recoiled
from
his touch.
“I'm fine,” I managed, and then I backed away further still. “If there's nothing more
to say, Your Majesty, I think it would be best for me to leave. It's been a long. day
for everyone and I need to see my son.”
Asher said nothing, but I turned around anyway and headed toward the door. I
waited for him to say something or stop me in some way, but when he didn't, I
continued out the door and into the hallway.
My eyes began to well up with tears, but I forced them back as best as I could.
As much as I appreciated Asher’s care and understanding, it came with a cost.
The more he offered, the more jealous and wrathful Adalyn would be, and I didn’t
want anything to do with that. This time I had been the intended victim of her
scorn but next time, it could be Finnick. I couldn't risk that. I would do anything to
keep my son safe, no matter what.
When I got back to my chamber, Erika and Finnick were waiting for me, and they
both noticed my bandage immediately.
“What happened, Ca ssandra?” Erika demanded and she rushed to my side. She
carefully took my arm and stared at me with wide eyes. Her concern was nearly
enough to make me cry all over again, but I couldn't risk getting upset in front of
Finnick.
“Something at work,” I remarked. “An accident. I'm okay, though.”
Erika didn’t seem convinced and neither did Finnick at first. The pair stared at me
for a while until Finnick returned to playing with his toys. Meanwhile, I took a seat
at the table and released a heavy breath. Erika disappeared for a little while, and
when she returned, she had tea and a small tray of tiny cakes. She brought
some over to Finnick and then set them in front of
mo
“Cassandra,” Erika said softly as she poured me a steaming cup of jasmine.
“What happened? Are you alright?”
I glanced over at Finnick. He was too distracted by his treat and his stuffed
animals to notice us. So, I decided to tell her the truth.
“I'm okay, but something did happen,” I admitted, and then I told her the whole
story. I didn’t spare any detail, but I kept my voice hushed enough for Finnick not
to overhear us. The last thing I needed was for my son to get involved in this
nightmare of a situation.
Erika shook her head as I finished. The color had vanished from her usually rosy
cheeks and worry painted her expression.
“Cassandra,” she sighed. “Oh, goodness. Lady Adalyn won't let this go easily.”
I nodded gravely. “I know.”
I took a long sip of my tea and prayed it would soothe my nerves, at least a little
bit. I forced a little more down, and once I found the courage, I looked back at
Erika and took her hand in my uninjured one.
“Erika, if something happens to me, will you take care of Finnick?” I asked
quietly.
The maid's eyes welled up a little and she leaned in.
“Of course I will,” she said with no hesitation. “I will do anything and everything to
take care of that sweet boy. You have my word, Ca ssandra.”
“Thank you,” I whispered, and then I glanced over at Finnick. He looked so
happy. All I wanted was for him to have the best life possible.
Suddenly, Kaleb’s offer crossed my mind for the first time. It was a crazy idea,
and I was certain the king of Yurene wanted something from me beyond what he
was expressing, not to mention the North was dangerous. I was unfamiliar with
everything there. But it was tempting to leave Anemond behind for good. If I went
to the North, Adalyn, Asher, Margaret, and Oliver Moses would all be a part of my
past.
I could leave Anemond and all of this wickedness forever. I could finally let Coral
Felix rest and allow myself to live fully as Ca ssandra Keller.
“Thank you, Erika,” I said again, realizing I'd fallen silent as my mind wandered.
“For everything. I really appreciate everything you've done and continue to do for
ik
“It's no trouble at all,” she assured me. “I promise you.”
She squeezed my hand and smiled warmly at me. Even with a different identity,
the maid had treated me the same as she had when I was young. She was so
warm, so friendly, and so willing to take care of me and my son. Erika was one of
the best people I'd ever known. Could I leave her behind? I didn’t know.
And what about Asher? Could I forget all about him and abandon him for the
North? I thought I could. But ever since our reunion, something had changed
inside me. Would I be able to force back my thoughts, my dreams, my desires to
have him as my own again?
As much as I longed for an answer right then and there, I didn’t know what I
wanted.
But I had to consider all of my options.
I had to.